hady looks like a downtoearth kinda guy. but he lacks the zai-ness that jonathan has. jonathan is abit too wannabe sometimes and he looks abit proud! but he is quite zai! but hady can sing better!

so, i called in twice to vote. one each. i am fair! hahahaa. not like my 1vote for each person will actually make a difference. you see, if lets say jonathan receives like 2345669 votes tonight. and then hady receives 2345059 votes tonight..... and if i didnt vote for them, jonathan will have 2345668 votes and hady will have 2345058 votes. in the end also jonathan win right or not????? so lame.

i dont like sundays. sundays makes me feel empty. lonely. sad. i think too much on sundays. i need to start doing something on sundays instead of sleeping till noon, watching dvds, watching stupid programmes on tv and... thinking too much.

i look back, i wonder why i did the things i did. i wonder why did i allow myself to do the things i did. i wonder why i didnt do the things im supposed to do. i wonder what could have happened if i did the things im supposed to do. i wonder whether i could have actually made a difference. is it too late now to want to make a difference? time and time again, i keep telling myself to appreciate the people around me. i am so thankful for all the people around me.

my nieces are growing up.. im so afraid that they will drift away from us as they grow older. but yesterday was good. tash is now quite stubborn and has her own views on different issues. kai is very stubborn, wants things her way all the time. spoilt brat!

i bought kai a jigsaw puzzle last week.
-passes kai the puzzle.-
d: what must you say?
k: thank you.
d: thank you who?
k: im watching tv ok.
d: dont be rude ok, i will take it back to the store.
k: take back lah!

you tell me, spoilt or not? and shes barely 4! dammit!
but kai is very smart. she knows how to 'manja' at the right time. thats why shes daddy's fav girl. we were on the luge rude yesterday. for some reason, kai didnt want to sit with her daddy. she wanted to sit with me. so as we were going down, she was like, 'faster aunty daph! lets go lets go!' and then when we got to the bottom, she turned around and gave me a bighug+kiss and said, 'that was fun aunty daph, can we do it again?' how not to love?? and in the car, she whispered something to my sis. and then my sis asked her to tell me herself. and then kai said, 'aunty daph, can you stay over more often? i had fun!'

danny's not coming back this year. :(

ok, better stop thinking so much.
i hate being emo.